I have no idea what I'm doing but I'm doing it anyway

Come sit next to me in this little pocket of sunshine and let me tell you a little story.

There were days we didn’t know where our next meal would come from, or how we’d get from one city to the next. I didn’t know how I’d pay the phone bill or if I’m even doing right by Ethan by traveling and exposing him to all the things we’ve seen.. the good, the bad, and the really ugly.

It’s not been easy stepping into a journey where nothing is guaranteed. But the truth I’ve come to learn is this: the unknown is where life happens - it’s where the guided embers from heaven float down to light the path before you.

I used to be terrified of the unknown. For so long, my life was just a big fat unknown space of fear and dread. I didn’t want to wake up to yet another day of surprises because they never worked in my favor. I always thought if I could at least control my known, then I would eventually start gaining control of my unknown.

Seems logical, right?

But it doesn’t work like that.

It’s in the unknown where we grow and discover what we’re made of. You can’t do that in a controlled environment wrapped in bubble wrap. The unexpected trials and personality shifts is where we become the person we’re meant to be.

All knowledge, self-knowledge included, is an experiment of the unknown. You don’t always know what you’re looking for or even why you’re looking for it, you just know something is missing and you need to find it.

But to do that, you have to be willing to walk into the unknown, into the “I have no idea what I’m doing but I’m doing it anyway” stage of bold curiosity and experiment with all the ideas that chase you at night while you’re trying to sleep.

You also have to be willing to be uncomfortable, to fall back into the arms of trust. This is where the doors open, the magic happens, and life starts happening for you instead of happening to you.

You’ll never have tomorrow’s answers, but you’ll always have today’s choices.

So I hope you stop moseying and start running straight into the abyss of the beautiful unknown. I know you’ll like it there because I do, and I’ll be right here waiting for you. We’ll take our time and make it our new home, together.